“Last week on Thursday I got drunk and thought about my friends Most of them are so in love and I’m happy for them I am resentful of the practices of human faith We fall in love, we fall in love, we hope it’s not too late” — I Hate…

Looking at your face in the dark, you don’t even look that smart. I realized that I never really knew you, I only knew this self-imposed version of you that my mania created. It makes me realize I haven’t truly loved anybody for a very long time. Doesn’t that make…

I don’t have much time left before all of this turns into meaningless nothing, so let me get this down quickly. Black panties hang on the hanger that’s supposed to hold washcloths, I’m back to being a slut. I’m sorry if I sleep around a lot, I’m really just doing…

I have become so familiar with the smell of weed, the skunky musk of pot, that I can’t smell it on myself anymore. Last night I went to the woods to smoke a joint. I had made the choice between a joint and a pack of cigarettes. I chose the…

Ivy-covered walls craft college campuses, dark and rainy just like the day you toured. White inner walls and ceiling, wooden furniture, wooden floors. All you need to complete the picture is a pale boy with dark hair, like Edward Cullen. It is like the year 2000 which is like the…

This weekend I took the trek up to Laurel, Maryland to spend an absurd amount of time at a horse-racing venue. In September, I journeyed to Ohio for Riptide 2021 as my first Smash major. …

Today I feel like writing poetry. Sun casts warm beams on the synthetic hardwood floors of this apartment; he grinds up the eighth we bought (this is the third in three days) while I control the music. My index finger aches and pulses from where I pulled a hangnail earlier…

Sometimes I feel that I’m living life in anticipation. Next, yet, are words that I have not exhumed from my vocabulary. This will not be a problem, yet. I will not quit, yet. I will quit next [week, month, years from now, never]. I can’t swallow my heartbeat when I’m…

On Beliefs I believe in feeling deeply. I believe in damaging your hearing for the sake of really good music. I believe in damaging your lungs for the sake of a really good menthol. I believe in clichés. I believe that there is true love, and it is important that…